...Another Day

So this is my first official blog here on "blogspot". I'm still not sure why i'm going to blog, i guess it just sounds like fun. Anyhow...
I picked up my bass guitar today for the first time in a while. I was wicked jazzed to start playing again. So I plugged in my amp, plugged in my bass and turned the amp on. I was saddened when no noise came forth. So I fiddled with it for a few moments and decided I need a new amp. You know those times in your life when it seems EVERYTHING is going wrong and EVERYTHING is breaking and EVERYTHING is costing you a fortune? Well that's my life right now. I'm not saying this to through myself a pity party, it's just the simple truth. I just found out I need a root canal, which is a fortune in itself. The tranny in my car is surely dying a sad death, even more sad is that a new tranny will cost just as much as my freekin root canal. My sister just left to go back to school, and it's going to be a long while before I get to see her. And now my silly amp. I usually crumble when this sort of thing happens to me but I'm holding myself together surprisingly well. It's in these time when I pull myself closer to God and His word.
Speaking of God's word I have been reading the book pf Psalms every night. You know how everyone always speaks with such valor and greatness of King David (author of Psalms)? Well I've always kind of thought of him as almost a magical being. I mean God even said David was "a man after my own heart". When talked about in the churches I have been in he was portrayed as one of the most holy people that have walked this earth. But reading Psalms I find him and I very similar in many ways. I mean, he's praising God with all he has in one Psalm and in the next he is crying out "Why, why have you forsaken me?" Isn't this just like me? I have these moments in my life where I am at perfect peace in God, where everything could be going wrong but I can't help but smile and praise God with my hands lifted and my eyes watering, and thats ALL I can think of. But then I have these days where I cry myself to sleep thinking of all I have lost over the past 2 years, and asking God "where were you when I needed you to intercede for my well being". I know this is a foolish question to ask someone who died for me to have an abundant and eternal life, but sometimes it's easy to get tripped up in all the sadness of this world. I just read Psalm 23 last night, and it feels like something that would have been written after a turbulent and trying time. It's used so often everywere, that I think people take it's beauty and truth for granted. I don't know who will be reading this but whoever you are I urge you to go open a Bible and read Psalm 23, I mean really read it. Imagine you are David and your soul is being restored, as God's staff protects you as He makes your enemies a foot stool. It's amazing.
Well, I think thats all I have to say today.
Blessings,
~Jennanana