I started session 2 of the Pod Runner Intervals running training program thingy. I'm pretty sure this week is going to be the death of me. It's much more difficult than the first one... either that or I was just very drained this morning. The program is really cool. It's supposed to train you to be able to run 5k in 9 weeks. check it out. When I got home after running this morning I was pooped and my mom asked me why I am doing it if it drains me the way it does, so I was thinking about it. I'd love to say it's to get me ready for the race on 10/26 at Lost Valley, but I'm going to be out of town that weekend and probably wouldn't do it even if I were around. A good chunk of the reason is to loose weight, but it hasn't really been helping with that, and I haven't been feeling much of a difference at all from it. So apparently I don't know why I'm doing it but I do know it helps with getting frustration out.
I remember right before Ryan divorced me, I was obviously super distraught, not many people knew he was leaving me so I didn't feel like i could talk to anyone about it. So I got online and found some chatroom for people who were going through the same thing. Most of the people in the room weren't in there for serious reasons but there was a very nice person who had just gone through a divorce, similar to mine because she loved her husband with everything in her being. I asked her how she managed to get through the pain of divorce and she had recommended the DivorceCare classes, prayer, and running haha. I'll never forget what she said about running. She said I should just go outside and run and cry while i'm running. She also informed me not to be alarmed at the amount of people that will stop me to ask if i'm alright. This seemingly simple advice has done wonders for me in this area. NO I'm not "over" my exhusband, and I still feel the pain of the divorce every day but I'm not as angry as I was. Apparently exercise does basically the same thing as antidepressants. God is so amazing to have given us such easy ways to help us get through tough times.
I managed to fix my bass amp this morning at 2am. It sounds pretty awesome now so I think I will start playing more. And not just UnderOath . Speaking of music....
I was reading the road journal of Scott from Tenth Avenue North and he had posted the lyrics to a song he was into at the time. I, of course had to download this song and listen to it myself. It's amazing... and I'm not just saying that because Scott likes it :-P anyway, it's a song called Holy Now by Peter Mayer...
When I was a boy, each week
On Sunday, we would go to church
And pay attention to the priest
He would read the holy word
And consecrate the holy bread
And everyone would kneel and bow
Today the only difference is
Everything is holy now
Everything, everything
Everything is holy now
When I was in Sunday school
We would learn about the time
Moses split the sea in two
Jesus made the water wine
And I remember feeling sad
That miracles don’t happen still
But now I can’t keep track
‘Cause everything’s a miracle
Everything, Everything
Everything’s a miracle
Wine from water is not so small
But an even better magic trick
Is that anything is here at all
So the challenging thing becomes
Not to look for miracles
But finding where there isn’t one
When holy water was rare at best
It barely wet my fingertips
But now I have to hold my breath
Like I’m swimming in a sea of it
It used to be a world half there
Heaven’s second rate hand-me-down
But I walk it with a reverent air
‘Cause everything is holy now
Everything, everything
Everything is holy now
Read a questioning child’s face
And say it’s not a testament
That’d be very hard to say
See another new morning come
And say it’s not a sacrament
I tell you that it can’t be done
This morning, outside I stood
And saw a little red-winged bird
Shining like a burning bush
Singing like a scripture verse
It made me want to bow my head
I remember when church let out
How things have changed since then
Everything is holy now
It used to be a world half-there
Heaven’s second rate hand-me-down
But I walk it with a reverent air
‘Cause everything is holy now
It's amazing how for granted thing get taken. I see it a million times a day where I work. Parents come in treating their children like crap. It amazes me STILL how often DHS has to be called due to signs of abuse on these precious little babies. Have you ever seen how small a three day old baby is? How can someone look at one and not revere it. It's amazing how God can put all the compnents a human being needs into such a small precious body. I don't think I could ever understand then resoning behind these people treating their own flesh and blood the way they do.
Well, now that I'm all worked up about work on a Saturday, I'm going to go play some bass...
Happy Weekend to all!
~Jennanana
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