It’s Monday, and what a Monday it was. Work was insane. Seriously, I think sometimes there is no way it could get any busier in that office, but it made the day scoot by quickly.
I had a super fun weekend. Bible study on Friday, Scott’s big solo show on Saturday, and church and the photo shoot (hehe) on Sunday.
Bible study was awesome, as usual. It’s so nice to get together with a bunch of women and talk about God. As much in love with Jesus as I am, I am having a little trouble with the study as a whole. It’s called “Falling In Love with Jesus” which is great and all but there are all these questions that are like “when did you ever feel this way” or “have you ever fallen in love” or “when did someone ever to something this romantic for you” all the while I’m trying to forget about Ryan. I understand the study is trying to show that Jesus’ love is so much sweeter than the love a man could ever give but it’s hard to not fall into self pity when most of the other women are like “oh, my husband did this”. Anyway, I’m learning to trust God now, with all of my heart. And even though it’s been a hard road to get here, I think I really do feel more loved than I even did with my ex-husband. BUT PLEASE understand that it is not because he didn’t love me enough, it’s only because he NOR ANY man on this earth could make me feel loved like Jesus. My heart breaks when I see people that do not know this love, and are looking for it in their spouse or boyfriend or what have you. People don’t understand that man was made for God. God is the only one who can truly validate someone. He is the only one who could make anyone feel the true peace that love is. Real love. It’s sad to think people are just going through mate after mate to try and get this love, and never stop to think, after the 8th guy (great guys, but just not for me) that this love can be fulfilled by some sinning loser who doesn’t even deserve to feel an ounce of happiness in this fallen world. That’s what we are, we are losers. We are sinners, and we deserve nothing. But yet God opens his arms and beckons us close where he whispers the words in our ears “I love you, I want you, come follow me and be with me”. It’s only then do we know real love, and nothing on this earth can match it.

WHEW! Now that I got that out… Scott’s show was AMAZING! Seriously I didn’t even think I would like it as much as I did but it was awesome. The crowd was awesome! The crème puffs were terrific… seriously, they were gooood. I think he is going to be doing some big stuff pretty soon. Which is super and everything but I sure am going to miss him and Shanon. I love just hanging at there house and invading their special time together, and beating Scott at Call Of Duty. Good times.
Well, got to go to Dadio’s. Hopefully I will write more about church and the amazing photo shoot!!
Go read Romans…the book in the Bible, it’s beautiful!
Blessings,
~Jennanana