What a day?!?
You ever had one of those days where you SWEAR there was nothing good in or coming out of it? I know the Bible says "This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it" but let me tell you this was one day i was not glad in!
First off, the only co worker that is fully competent is on vacation this whole week so I had to close tonight. Which is cool because I didn't have to go in until 10:30 since we aren't allowed to accrue overtime ( *rolls eyes* ). Who doesn't like to sleep in on Monday mornings? So i get to work and there are like, a million calls in the queue for almost 30 mins, a huge stack of papers still sitting on the fax machine from well over an hour before and things are a mad house. So the minute I sit down I get a call from our medical coder informing me that when I was gone on Friday afternoon things weren't taken care of so she wasn't able to post our payments and I had another pile of stuff to get done. Anyway since anyone reading this can't see how crazy my eyes are or the flailing of my arms i'll just say the day was absolutely insane. I've worked there for 2 yeas and i've never seen it so crazy. OK enough talk about work... I have to go back there in like 8 hours wahhh.
With the coming of the new year a lot of thinking about who I am came. With that came thinking about how much I have changed since the divorce (no, I'm STILL not over it). Though I've lost a lot of independence i.e, living with my mom, I think I have gained much more. When I was with Ryan he was always right, I fell into that whole "oh, he loves this so I do too" or "he thinks this so I agree with it" thing. Not with everything and to the point where my identity was lost but to where it was fuzzy and fading out. But I'm glad to say I have found a lot of myself. I've re-discovered how truly amazing a relationship with Jesus is and that is something I would never give up, even for Ryan. I've managed to find some sort of fashion sense that I never knew was inside of my brain. My tastes in music and movies has become genuinely mine (just ask anyone I hang out with... not many like my music). I have even figured out how to tie my shoe without the bow being sidewards (thank you granny at David's Bridal) which really comes in handy when your running and you wear ankle socks b/c it feels like a bug is on your leg when the lace keeps rubbing up against it.
Keep it real people. And not the fake real, but the real real.
~Jenna
Oh you want the real real, ok then!
ReplyDeleteSo cool to see your real identity in Christ awakening. B/c He's in everything and He's the true lover of your soul. It's because His mercies are new every morning that you can go in to a "crazy" day of work like that and know He's in you, holding everything together.