I went to New Jersey last weekend with my dear mumzy.
We went down for the weekend to see the band Seventh Day Slumber. 
It was great to see those guys and get away for a bit. 
It also made me realize how very much I hate how I am living my life. Ever since the divorce I feel like I have done so many things to make myself a better person. I have become closer to God and I love that but I have also allowed myself to put things on hold. Maybe I needed that for a while to re-find and re-make myself but enough's enough. I'm stuck in a seriously dead-end job living in my home town afraid to go into town for fear of seeing my exhusband's family. I can't do this much longer. I have to find something to do with my passion for Jesus and music. When I think about it I don't understand my hesitation. I know God will take care of my needs no matter what the case, but at the same time I don't believe I was given responsibilities to just walk away from them. Like the debt from my car that I am in. God tells us to pay our debts (Romans 13:8). If I don't have a job or prospects of a job or something like that I'm not going to have the money to pay my outrageously expensive car payment. Then there's the whole health insurance thing. I am diabetic and have a newly diagnosed thyroid issue both of which are expensive. So, as you see, it's not practical for me to "just go". I've been completely distracted by the sounds of Deas Vail to think of any more to write on this subject... But speaking of the sounds of Deas Vail here are some blog-worthy lyrics from their song A Lover's Charm:Don’t cry, love, oh don’t cry.
You know I won’t let you go.
Cause I gave everything tonight so that you could come back home
with a smile upon your face and the morning in your arms.
I changed everything in this place because you’re worth a lover’s charm.
Night!
~Jennanana
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