Wait For Iiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttt!!!!

In less than 12 hours I begin another new chapter of my life. I start my job at UNUM... dun dun dunnnn... I'm super excited and totally nervous! Corporate America and rocker Jenna are going to meet as they have never done before! I have all those "what-if" fears running through my head... what if my team doesn't like me, what if my shoes aren't awesome enough... OK not really the shoe one, I have some killer work shoes, AND now that I can wear open toe shoes I have UBER killer heels that I've been dying to wear anyway! So, yeah, I guess it really just boils down to the what if they don't like me question. It seems dumb to me to worry about that at the age of 26, but I can do dumb ;-) As nervous as I am, I am also truly, exuberantly excited! Thinking back to just a few months ago I was really struggling with myself and my life. I had a good job, but was incredibly demanding, time and mentally wise that my duties outside of work suffered intense neglect, including school. I had been starting to doubt my decision to continue my education due to the cost of it, and wondering how it was really going to help vocationally since I don't want to teach, or become a minister, or write. The one thing I felt that was right in my life, besides my relationship with Jesus, is my apartment, the one I've been in since October and still haven't bothered to furnish it, or have people over to... Basically I was at that point where I was finding myself constantly praying asking God to reveal His plan, and to grant me the means to better follow His lead, and the patience I am lacking in the meantime. This prayer has been a constant one in my life, especially since the divorce 6 years ago, but it usually focused on one part of my life (relationship). So for the past six months or so I have had a restlessness in my spirit, prompting my prayers. I don't know if everyone experiences feelings the same way or not but this restlessness was not pleasant. Nothing would do! I'm really not a high maintenance person and I need very little to be happy (I still don't have furniture) but WOW! This feeling was relentless! Everything I tried to do during this time seemed to fall apart or blow up in my face. There was a Saturday in April when my beloved car Birdy broke down, my mom happened to be in TN visiting my sisters and I needed a new battery. Every person that I could/would call for help lived at least 30 mins away. The Napa store where I needed to go was only about 1/2 mile away, but that was 1/2 mile carrying a heavy battery both ways (yes, I'm a girly, wimpy, wuss! But I can still change a tire and your oil faster than you!!). The rest of that day unfolded with continuous bad things, almost like you would see in a movie, so many unfortunate things that it was ALMOST humerus. It dawned on me after the day was done, and I had wrapped myself in bubble wrap, that if this type of day unfolded in Chattanooga I already have a list 3.45 feet long of people who are within ten minutes of Chatt that I'm 190% positive would have been there to not only help physically, but to encourage and pray with me. Then, my sister Shanon informs me of a real possibility of a job at UNUM in her department that could very well be the means to move me to Chatt later down the road. Sure enough, I was offered the job! Talk about changes, right? Nerve wrecking? NO! For the first time in months the restlessness dwindled and as I began to put together a plan the restlessness subsided! For the first time in my adult life I truly feel that I have direction! I vividly see God's hand in the circumstances guiding me to some huge changes, and I'm not freaking out! I freak out about every change, just ask my siblings. Over the last 2 weeks, since accepting the position at UNUM, God has blessed me with "kisses from the sky" in many forms like some closure having to do with the divorce, taking away a fear I have had for 7 years, new friendships with bands who frequent Chatt, and a new friendship with a totally sold out to Christ dude from Portland who is also moving to Chatt. Seeing God's hand my seemingly ever-chaotic life is elating! It almost feels like this time is what I have been waiting my whole life for, what God has been saying "wait for iiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttt" about, or at least one of the times I have been waiting for, I hope there is more where this came from! God is good, what more can I say?
"I will sing of Your mercy, that leads me through valleys of sorrow to rivers of joy"
Blessings!!
~Jennanana