Wow! It's Christmas already! It seems as though this year has not even happened and the end of it is just next week. It makes me wonder what I actually accomplished in my life this year. It doesn't feel like I've done anything note worthy or really anything at all, other then work. A song by the OC Supertones called 20/20 comes to mind...
I felt so introspective tonight
Thinkin’ ahead about my final hindsight
Did I make every moment count
How much did I sit about
Doin’ not the good I know to do
What will I say when I’m faced with His glory the saints
And the angels as I tell my story
Will the works I’ve accomplished be worthy of Heaven
What will I think lookin’ back
What was gold what was dross
What was gain what was loss
What will stand what was fleeting
And what will I change while my hearts still beating
20/20
So many thoughts fill up my mind
Look inside the world and I can’t find
The promise of another day
Or how much longer I will stay
No one really knows how long they have
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*** Please note that, (though I'm not going to blog all about it now) I DO NOT BELIEVE "works" are going to get people into heaven. As Sanctus Real puts it "If you don't have faith you have nothing at all, but if you dont have deeds your faith will fall. IT can't be true without each other, you can't have one without the other" .
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So, as I have said, it's Christmas (just barely) I just finished wrapping my gifts and watched Blue Streak as I have done for the past 3 years in a row now. Yes, it's a weird tradition and I'm sure one day I will stop but for now it's Blue Streak on Christmas Eve baby!
As most everyone knows, Christmas is a hard time for me but I am so glad this one has been easier than last years (*sigh* so far) Though I have been depressed I've managed to not really dwell on it and actually get some things done but I have been thinking A LOT, which is dangerous for me. As everyone knows I love Jesus. I love Him so much more than I love this whole "holiday" thing and as I was stressing about gifts and stuff I stopped for a moment and thought "Dang! This is really inconvenient" I really want to celebrate this day as the recognized day that God gave Jesus to all of us humans to save our lives, and here I am worrying about what to buy a certain member of my family who doesn't really need anything anyway! All of my life I have heard people say that Christmas has been ruined by the corporate capitalistic pigs (big thanks to Calibretto 13 for this tasteful title) but I have never truly felt the effect like i have in the past couple weeks. It's really taken an emotional toll on me. Going to Christmas Eve service at church tonight really helped. I kinda missed going to my great grandmother's house but I'm so glad I went to church. It's good to be with people in the same head space as I am before going back to the whole gimme thing.
Anyway! I have been wanting to post about something but have not had the time to so here it is... You know how everyone has those inflatable decorations in their yards these days? Have you ever noticed, late at night, that they are deflated and like just dead on the ground? It's really stinkin depressing! It makes me think of the letter to the Church of Laodicea in the book of Revelation. This church was called by God the "Lukewarm" church...
"I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
It's like those decorations, in the day time they are doing good things, following the Lord, worshiping Him for others to see, but at the moment when no one is watching they go flat. Or the moment something goes wrong they become deflated no longer desiring the truth that they were just proclaiming..... Maybe I just think too much and should go to bed.
On that note Merry Christmas to everyone! I do hope God blesses you richly and that you make time to celebrate Him above all the gifts received. He is the reason any of us have a chance for happiness or even peace and most of all, love.
Love came down at Christmas
Love, a lovely love devine
Love was born at Christmas
Stars and angels gave the signs
Love shall be our token
Love be yours and love be mine
Love from God to all of us
Love for plea and gift a sign
Love,
~Jennanana
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