So I have decided I do not know what to blog about any more. My life seems to be the same ol sad story every time I try to write it.
I still hate being divorced. I have joined something called Divorce Care, which is a support group but run by The Vineyard. I like it because it is Christ centered and if this whole ordeal taught me anything it taught me to make sure everything I do is Christ centered. This last week we went over the topic of "new relationships" dun dun dunnnn... Apparently I'm slow at recovering because the people that created the whole book and dvd thing say that you should wait 1 year for every 4 you were married before ou get into another relationship. So using this equation I "could" have started dating wayyyyyyy back in Sept 2007... HOLY FRICKIN CRAP PEOPLE! it still unnerves me just thinking about going on a date with a boy...ahem, man (teehehe). Anyway the book has some really great ways to check yourself before getting into anything before you are healed to the point where you don't bring the hurt and anger from the failed marriage into the new relationship.
I feel like I'm in a valley. I can't get out of it on either side. But there is hope and I know this. There is sonshine in my valley, and I know that is all I really need. I want to live my life like the Valley Song by Jars of Clay....

You have led me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
On a back bruised, nearly broken
I'm crying out to you

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

When death like a Gypsy
Comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek your face

But I fear you aren't listening
Because there are no words
Just the stillness and the hunger
For a faith that assures

Alleluia, alleluia

While we wait for rescue
With our eyes tightly shut
Face to the ground using our hands
To cover the fatal cut

And though the pain is an ocean
Tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
Higher mountains have come down

Yeah
Alleluia, alleluia

Oh, Lord sing of Your mercy,
Mercy
Your mercy



On another sad note my dear friends Ken and Melissa are moving on Sunday to Tennessee and I'm very sad. I don't remember being this sad about friends going their way before. I am going to miss them a lot... like A LOT! And with them leaving Scott leaves for a month for his tour, and I'm going to miss him but only a little ;-)


An a not sad note I have re-found my As Cities Burn "Come Now Sleep" cd and that makes me extremely happy!!!! I have found this to be an album full of raw emotion and wonderful messages in the music. Definitely a band I have in my top 5... which, as most of you know, is VERY selective!
Anyway, to bed I go.
Thank You, Jesus, for getting me through so far!
~Jenna