When I Was A Child I Acted Like I Do Now....

So I'm sitting here listening to a string quartet tribute to the band UnderOath and it's totally rad! Anyway.......
I haven't been running. Like a good girl I have listened to the doctor, even though I desperately want to run. I never would have thought I would have become so into running but nothing has helped get my frustration out like running. When I was young I was a super angry and violent kid. If you don't believe me ask my sisters, they will tell you stories that will scare you. One night when I was on the verge of a blow out with my mom she came up with the idea of giving me a baseball bat and told me to take it to my bed and beat the crap out of my bed instead of bringing the frustration to her and my sisters. So I did and it worked! The only problem is... I grew up! I look like a fool beating the shiznit out of my bed with a baseball bat! So with all the frustration of having to completely uproot my entire life (new home, new job, new car, no husband, no money, a billion bills b/c my name was on EVERYTHING and someone decided he did not need to be responsible for things he should have been) I was becoming a bit overwhelmed. I had gotten advice from a random lady in a random chatroom, based on helping people newly divorced, to try running. I think this was the most important advice I got throughout the divorce time. I already knew I could and would go to God and He would get me through but I didn't know what to go with this extra energy fueled by anger and i desperately did not want to project the anger and hurt onto any of my friends or family at this time. So I tried it. I loved it! I listened to UnderOath's "They're Only Chasing Safety" and Kids In the Way's "Apparitions" and ran. I was way out in the country so not many people heard me attempting to scream my way through "I'm Content With Losing" and "A Boy Brushed Red"... Good times! The best thing was when I was coming back to the driveway, it was a long driveway and I would find my awesome cat Cadence waiting to race me down the driveway then rub all over my face when I collapsed on the grass :-). I am so thankful that God brought that lady from the chatroom for the 5 minutes we talked. It was such a "God Thang" as cliche as it is to say it... how else do you explain it? I suppose you could just say right place right time but that sucks and is so boring! Lol! :-) So I think I forgot to mention I can't run right now while my docs are working on getting my heart rate down with some new medicine. They are estimating 2 months before I can go back to it. And it has really got me down! But I'll push through and work on strengthening for now and then when I can run ( in JUNE :-( ) I may be able to run more better er er!
Anyway, that's all...
Be Blessed,
~Jennanana