On Gratefulness

It's been a rough year for me, as most people who know me, know. I've lost relationships that were so dear to me, moved away, moved back, went terribly broke, and felt just as horrible as I did when I was divorced. Looking back, last year was probably one of my BEST years. I got into such a habit of just thinking on the bad things that happened, and I'll say it, there were a lot of bad things that happened last year, but I deserve nothing more. This is the kicker! I know a lot of people would read that statement and think something like "ohhh, no one deserves that stuff!" some would even add "especially not Jenna" lol. But, alas, I was once a rebel against Go; Against Jesus Christ who bled out on the cross for me. I deserve nothing but fire and brimstone just like every person reading this... and not reading this. However, lately I have been thinking a lot on what I have been given versus what I really deserve and the contrast is stark. Last year I was blessed with 5 weeks off from work, enough money saved up for those 5 weeks and to move to Chattanooga to spend that time healing with my sisters and brothers. I was able to go to numerous concerts that I could only DREAM of going to, including one I flew to Chattanooga for after i moved home (yes, just for the concert. No, I'm not even kidding). I spent more time at the glorious beach than I have ever before. Enjoyed Soul Fest all by myself. Got a killer job at Mid Coast Hospital. Then got an EVER MORE KILLER JOB at Coastal Ortho, that I absolutely ADORE. I've made countless new friends from Chatt to Maine and back. I have been able to fuel and fix and buy things for my beautiful car.
I am blessed beyond words can describe. The loss of relationships still sting... but the friendships I have been blessed with through these loses are truly amazing.




Gratefully,
~Jennanana