Present Situations... No wrapping paper needed...

I’ve been thinking a lot about where I am in life and why I’m here. I truly believe God has a way of working out the crap in our lives to make something useful out of it… notice how I didn’t say good, I don’t know about you guys but my perception of good is wayyyy different than God’s (yes, I’m working on that) and I’ve learned not to always expect “good” things to come out of rotten situations. Useful though, mannnnn has there been some useful stuff to come out of my crap.
So, what does that have to do with today? I’m always tempted to focus on what I learned through my husband divorcing me, and what I learned from the situation John left me in. I think it’s easy for me to focus on those situations because they have been the hardest things I have dealt with over the last 5 years (HOLY COW! It’s been 5 years!) and I have truly learned so much through those situations.
But I’m feeling stagnant these days and it’s leaving me in a place where I feel like there is something I am missing in my day to day. So I thought and prayed, and I was super blessed with an answer in 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 to “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Jesus Christ.” I can honestly say I haven’t been thanking God for working 50+ hour weeks and coming home to do 4+ hours of school work every night. I can honestly say I haven’t been rejoicing when I have to deal with a belligerent patient chewing me out for something I had nothing to do with. I can also honestly say my prayer life REALLY needs some work! I’m thankful for the answer to my pray but, I sure wish it was more like (insert big, booming, God-like voice here)“Jenna J. Rice! You’ve used up your usefulness here and it’s time for the next big chapter!”… (now insert wah wah wahhhhhhh).
So, I have my work cut out for me. Honestly, it’s lame that I’m waiting on the next “big thing” when I can’t even find solace (for lack of better word... and I have Project 86's song Oblivion) in where I’m currently at. Oh, what a fickle human I am... And now I’m going to stop blogging and go finish the paper I have very successfully put off.
Blessings!!
~Jennanana