So I had a moment this morning. It was beautiful. As most of you have guessed or already know I have had a rough go at things lately and have been feeling very sad. Sad enough to question why it is I have to go through what I'm going through. Why can't Jesus just take me home now? That's been my selfish prayer lately. Before everyone starts freaking out, I'm not talking suicide or anything like that I'm just thinking in the terms of say... Enoch (totally AMAZING right?). This has been my prayer for a little while now, constantly. Today as I was preparing myself to leave the safety and great smelling atmosphere of my car to go into work I did my Daily Bread devotional.... You know how a lot of people are like "Wo! I totally needed to hear that today" when someone quotes a famous Bible verse or something? This was definitely one of those times x20! The verses were Philippians 1:19-26:
"for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me."
Like "WOA!!!!" right? Not only did God use this passage to comfort me in my trials assuring me that He is with me but He reminded me that my issue is so small in comparison to how big He is. This passage was written by Paul when He was in jail. He had probably been beaten too for sharing the Gospel with those who had not heard about Jesus.
Good night
~Jenna
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