Lots of decisions have been made in my life recently. I moved here to Tennessee which i've decided was MOSTLY an emotional response to John and I breaking things off, regardless of how stupid this may or may not have been I have learned a lot in my weeks here.
1. I'm a wuss when it comes to heat and humidity. How do people live down here? NO OCEAN! At least in Maine when it's hot you can have peace of mind knowing that the wonderful, beautiful, ice cold Atlantic shores are yours to enjoy. Here... There's lake Chicmauga where you must be cautious not to be eaten by a freekin cat fish when swimming. Not to mention what will happen if you eat one of them cat fish! Oi!
2. People do not drive well here. I've been rear-ended TWICE in the 3 weeks I have been down here... Both at red lights... that stayed red until AFTER I got hit...
3. I love the thought of being able to drive an hour to the beach and an hour to the beautiful White Mountains or many other mountains.
4. I don't mind snow all that much.
5. Black car with black leather and black interior + south = HOT... So i'd have to somehow find an affordable light colored VW GTI MK IV down here. Lots of work.
6. It's not Maine I hated... it was certain circumstances of my life in Maine. SO- fix those things I don't like and Maine will be great... Sounds good in theory.
Anyway. In all this thinking about staying and going and this and that I've been so distraught over the breakup of John and I. I cried a lot last night and just had a pity party. In the midst of this I was talking to a very wise friend of mine on FaceBook chat who said something so profound I have to share it with the 2 people who read my blog. He said "Don't let yourself focus on something that the Lord's not allowing right now." Isn't it strange how easily we call into the traps of this life? What I mean is I know the Lord's plan is going to definitely be better than ANYTHING I can come up with but yet here I am trying again to fix something that is obviously not going to be fixed either now or maybe never. How quickly I take the reigns back from the Lord and say "Nope, it's alright, I got this" when I didn't even realize we were taking a different road than the one I just flung us onto. It's as if I've been praying "Please Lord, let's follow my will this time". How did I get there? It's so strange that after ALL He has brought me through in the last 5 years I'm still so quick to try and take over.
Went to the Warehouse tonight with Scott and Shanon. It was so awesome. We saw Spoken who put on a great show with lots of jumping and screaming and LOTS of sweating. Saw another band who opened for Spoken called Chicago Winter who was absolutely amazing. Seriously, it was like this awesome mix of Emery, Deas Vail, and someone else who rocks but i can't think of. Check them out here.
Well, with all that said I am going to go to sleep.
1John 2:28- "And now, dear children, continue in Him, so that when He appears we may be confident and unashamed before Him at His coming."
Nighty night,
~Jenna
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